To be clear, this is really a note and a drawing to myself.
There isn’t much difference between you and me anyway, as there is no “I,” so you are me, and I am you.
If I write to you, I am writing to myself, and vice versa. Since there is no difference, I can post this here instead of writing it in my personal handwritten journal. I can also write “we” instead of “I,” since we’re riding this boat of life together.
I haven’t drawn much my whole life, so I’m playing around with a few pencils here. I am having fun working more on my creative side and less with my mind. I noticed that when I draw, I remember better. Visions are expressed better in images than in words, so I did both today.
I also meditated for an hour.
Meditation is really easy. The challenge isn’t meditating; it's remembering to meditate.
There is no need to sit like Buddha; plus, it hurts- we aren’t used to it here.
Sitting is nice: closing our eyes and observing our breath and the sensations in our body. We don’t even have to close our eyes; we can even meditate while talking to someone else.
We can meditate all the time.
Meditation is all about remembering not to be caught in the moment whatever the moment is (talking to someone, watching a movie, working on a computer, etc).
Meditation is about creating enough distance from whatever is happening to remember to observe ourselves from the outside, as if we became that observer.
Instead of the actor of the movie, we become the observer.
What would that observer find?
Would we be seen as calm? Would we be seen as speaking good words? Would we be seen as compassionate toward others, or as stressed, agitated, and annoying?
Meditation is about stepping out of the role of actor in the movie of our life and sitting in the spectator’s seat to watch the show.
Once we’re done with this step, then we can realize we are actually the director of the movie, not the actor, not the spectator.
This is why it is always a good idea to remind ourselves to meditate.
To remember who we are.
Hi Loïc, it’s nice to read you. For me, the actor and the observer are the question of acting and non-acting, the Chariot and the Hanged Man in the Tarot de Marseille. So maybe meditation isn't about trading the actor's seat for the spectator's. Maybe it's about sitting at the hub, the still, empty center that lets the wheel turn, and feeling the tension between the two without rushing to resolve it. Perhaps that's where the director lives ?
I was who I am when I was young. Now I'm back :) blessings!